its been like one yr plus..one more day to one yr 2 months..
long journey..lol..
wonder y we dun get sick of one another..i pray we'll never..;)

can u believe it..i'm bloggin in school..
exeter may not accept me..=(
cos my geo got a C..
hais..so much for dreamin of direct honours..

anyways..i guess once i confrim..
i'll re-take a levels..if i cant..yeaps..
i'm gettin paid 65 a day..3rd day at work..
feel super lethagic already..>.< (cos got mens okies~!)
i guess bein a teacher is not that easy after all..=(

teachers get happi over weird stuff..like students bringin their hw on time..
super retarded..aren't students SUPPOSED to do so?
well..now i'm one..=x..
i get happi relatively easily..as long as darlin shows more affection..
or plans to bring us out..
or does smth a lil romantic..
i will be elated..=)
but he's super busy..so he hardly has time to humour me..
i'm flyin soon..quite alot of excitment..and extremely overwhelmin amt of sadness..
oh well..i tink i'll be quite stuck with ANU..
should have flown this july..
at least wun waste half a yr doin nth..
i saw yi an and alwyn on their anni..
she borrowed $50 from me to like get him a gift..
but instead they rent a car..
sumtimes i'm super jealous with alwayn havin so much time to do all this..

i neva had an anniversary planned by him..
and my birthday is comin..
and he wun b takin leave..cos it'll b no point..
i guess i'll spend it with the children in school..
and with my family..mayb i should disappear on that day..and rot dat day awAY..
wun feel so sore..

isn't birthdays suppose to be an happi affair?
smth to look forward to?
why is mine smth i'm tryin hard not to tink about?
why is mine smth i'm not lookin forward to..
hmms..

i guess its in every single womanly creature..to look back..
weird..we enjoy dwellin..
yesterday saw a really old fren..someone who taught me so many stuff..

how to feel beautiful when u're not..
how to smile while crying..
how to treasure friends..
how to do so many..so many stuff..
most importantly..how to let go of love..

yeap..tan chin hao..
i always feel extremely positive..that he'll not call me on the streets..
i always feel exteremely positive he'll try his utmost best to forget bout me..
but he din..he called to me..
it made me tink of the past so much at an instant..
i do miss him..it made me miss eugene too..
for he's my bestest guy fren..jus like chin hao in many ways..
but this time seeing him made mi fully realised..
i've moved on..
cos i no longer feel an pinch of sorrow in my heart..
cos beside me..with fingers entwine..is my darlin..=)..

lookin back..i miss the times before eugene confess..
seein him now..is usually..
10% of awkwardness + 15% of feelin sorry + 20% of missing him + 55% of best friendship = 100% me and eugene'2007
i miss the times we stone together for HOURS..at coffee bean(or was it starbucks?)..
doing..NOTHING..
ok..i was usually listenin to MP3 or readin a book..
whilst he'll jus stare and den fall asleep..
and he'll always bring his big comfy jacket to sling on my shoulder when i start shiverin..
i guess..this is smth i really hope to return to..maybe i should..i should every sat nite let paul enjoy his frens..whilst i pei eugene..

time..made things really different..its byn a yr..
wat can i say..
you made me..never regret any single breadth..
never regret any single thin(regardless of how much i say i regret)..
jus wan ya to noe..
u're a part of me..
a reason..
a strength..
a courage..
like i said..
every single sec thruout tis time..
i've let it past by lovin ya..=)
i cant promise u the future cos who noes what will happen..
but i'll try my utmost best..
to love..
to learn..
and to only let every single sec past..
by loving you..=)

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