Tuesday, July 24, 2007
i guess.
we often only learn how to treasure
when we lose smth or when we are about to lose it
its kinda same logic for many things in my life
read a story.
really nice
sad and romantic
jus no freaking ending
but ya. kinda drama-mama.
smths i do admit.
i get kinda teary and frustrated that he doesn't pay attention in humouring me
jus like the past
but whenever i read like sad love stories or watch dramas
i'll jus have this pang in me..
that i'm fortunate
because i have the honour to wake up every morning jus beside him
that i'm truely cared for
because when i wake up in pain every night due to gastric
he would rub my tummy till i fall asleep
that i'm loved
for after every long day he would always tink of rushing back to meet me
that i'm really lucky
because he would try his best to change anything for me
he quit smoking for me, he changed his tone and temper, he makes an effort to spend every possible moment with me
as a woman i often overlook all this little details.
either make him feel guilty by getting all red eye
or cook up funny tempers and reasons to justify myself.
it fills me with so much pride to call him darlin
and the knowledge of him choosing to hold my hands instead of other gals..
i guess if any case my horrible side erupt again.
do know.
deep in me.
i'll never stop lovin ya.
we often only learn how to treasure
when we lose smth or when we are about to lose it
its kinda same logic for many things in my life
read a story.
really nice
sad and romantic
jus no freaking ending
but ya. kinda drama-mama.
smths i do admit.
i get kinda teary and frustrated that he doesn't pay attention in humouring me
jus like the past
but whenever i read like sad love stories or watch dramas
i'll jus have this pang in me..
that i'm fortunate
because i have the honour to wake up every morning jus beside him
that i'm truely cared for
because when i wake up in pain every night due to gastric
he would rub my tummy till i fall asleep
that i'm loved
for after every long day he would always tink of rushing back to meet me
that i'm really lucky
because he would try his best to change anything for me
he quit smoking for me, he changed his tone and temper, he makes an effort to spend every possible moment with me
as a woman i often overlook all this little details.
either make him feel guilty by getting all red eye
or cook up funny tempers and reasons to justify myself.
it fills me with so much pride to call him darlin
and the knowledge of him choosing to hold my hands instead of other gals..
i guess if any case my horrible side erupt again.
do know.
deep in me.
i'll never stop lovin ya.
moments captured! Tuesday, July 24, 2007.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
i really wanna teach history or geography.
god.
please help me.
i'm super proud of my unit.
we're quite golden and shinny now. (:
u know pple hardly rmber samantha.
they usually rmber diana.
i know. i hardly focus on hardskills.
i feel i'm too old to do so.
i know i'm not strict as da past. fierce and shrilling.
i nag alot.
i'm quite disappointed in that way. that my own kids wanna be under other CIs for probation instead of me.
for they feel they got more to learn.
and also durin da interview.
none of them talk bout enforcing unity.
all bout discipline.
but do they know. in xms history.
they are the only squad.
to have soft skill and probation training?
the only squad that came in top 10 for inter unit quiz.
why? because they are united.
every yr the inter-unit quiz will be a disaster cos it is the best time to sabo ur frenz.
i feel my job is done with this unit.
i made it gold twice. and i guess its enuff.
this post is dedicated to the fucking asshole scumbag of this earth dat cheated on my sister
u suck
i always prefered terence to u
y?you're not a man
i bet u hardly have enough guts to have a dick
you're a true die hard LIAR
we were always so fuckingly foolishly nice to u
cos i cant get sense into my sisters head that u're an irritating slug stuck in her butt.
you are a lecher
a disgusting think u know it all
great and mighty my foot
freakin short and skinny. with ur ever lusy dress sense
u look like u live in the 1940s. after war..always torn and tattered.
because ur clothin are so mismatch.
*he wears a black button shirt with black bermudas**pukes*
u two timed ur ex
then two timed my sister
u are the one that two-timed and yet u accuse ur ex of doin so rite?
he even blamed her for bein a distraction to him for his o's
come on,face it
u're jus plain STUPID.
UTTERLY BRAINLESS.
as da sayin goes.
a bad workman always blames his tools.
u insulted the lord. rite in front of us.
u deserved to be pitied.
cos u do not know how to fear our god.
go ahead. and continue two timing.
let me be nice and remaind u.
there are alligators and unknown creatures in the sea.
the next time u do so.
it may backfire. and i hope u know.
u'll run into a bunch or starved barracudas. they'll shred u into pieces within minutes
or mayb not.
u'll spoil their appetite.i hope they jus bite ur dick n spit it out.
kinda a tortue.
den i'll pray u survive.
but w/o the ability to mate like u always do.
u could smell, look and even taste. butucan't doit.
btw.u really have BO u know.u smell like sumone who constantly trains for olympics but never bathes. and the shirt u've worn always smell like its been lock in a dark mouldy shoe cupboard.
i'm lovin this post.
i'm still always been kind and practise reservations in my words.
so, am i sweet?
god.
please help me.
i'm super proud of my unit.
we're quite golden and shinny now. (:
u know pple hardly rmber samantha.
they usually rmber diana.
i know. i hardly focus on hardskills.
i feel i'm too old to do so.
i know i'm not strict as da past. fierce and shrilling.
i nag alot.
i'm quite disappointed in that way. that my own kids wanna be under other CIs for probation instead of me.
for they feel they got more to learn.
and also durin da interview.
none of them talk bout enforcing unity.
all bout discipline.
but do they know. in xms history.
they are the only squad.
to have soft skill and probation training?
the only squad that came in top 10 for inter unit quiz.
why? because they are united.
every yr the inter-unit quiz will be a disaster cos it is the best time to sabo ur frenz.
i feel my job is done with this unit.
i made it gold twice. and i guess its enuff.
this post is dedicated to the fucking asshole scumbag of this earth dat cheated on my sister
u suck
i always prefered terence to u
y?you're not a man
i bet u hardly have enough guts to have a dick
you're a true die hard LIAR
we were always so fuckingly foolishly nice to u
cos i cant get sense into my sisters head that u're an irritating slug stuck in her butt.
you are a lecher
a disgusting think u know it all
great and mighty my foot
freakin short and skinny. with ur ever lusy dress sense
u look like u live in the 1940s. after war..always torn and tattered.
because ur clothin are so mismatch.
*he wears a black button shirt with black bermudas**pukes*
u two timed ur ex
then two timed my sister
u are the one that two-timed and yet u accuse ur ex of doin so rite?
he even blamed her for bein a distraction to him for his o's
come on,face it
u're jus plain STUPID.
UTTERLY BRAINLESS.
as da sayin goes.
a bad workman always blames his tools.
u insulted the lord. rite in front of us.
u deserved to be pitied.
cos u do not know how to fear our god.
go ahead. and continue two timing.
let me be nice and remaind u.
there are alligators and unknown creatures in the sea.
the next time u do so.
it may backfire. and i hope u know.
u'll run into a bunch or starved barracudas. they'll shred u into pieces within minutes
or mayb not.
u'll spoil their appetite.i hope they jus bite ur dick n spit it out.
kinda a tortue.
den i'll pray u survive.
but w/o the ability to mate like u always do.
u could smell, look and even taste. butucan't doit.
btw.u really have BO u know.u smell like sumone who constantly trains for olympics but never bathes. and the shirt u've worn always smell like its been lock in a dark mouldy shoe cupboard.
i'm lovin this post.
i'm still always been kind and practise reservations in my words.
so, am i sweet?
moments captured! Sunday, July 22, 2007.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
its quite ultimately disgustin i realised..
regardin being a teacher.
i stayed in school till 7 pm~
jus to do my stuff
*rolls eyes*.. i'm jus a relief teacher.
confirm.made up my mind.
i'mgointoexeter.
for da first time since so long.
my birthday this yr was relatively quiet.
sum of my dear kids remembered.(:
i was actually like lookin forward to it.
cos i tot i'll get sum surprise and like be super elated
wee~
*needles cumin from all over da place burst my bubble*
it feels worst when everyone was like
"gosh, birthday is a big event for me, i'll be super upset if there's no big hoo-ha or smth"
rite, i really needed that comment.
havin a bf doesn't = to romance.
esp if he's not romantic.
all the comments by close frenz n staff room was like rubbing a concentrated solution of salt and vinegar on my wound.
yes, OUCH!
i wasn't feelin bad at all. cos like its his personality to be not romantic.
anniversaries n birthdays and V.DAY are quite non-existents in our r/s.
its not bad or sad or smth.
as in i really mean it.
it only feels bad & sad & smth when everyone
takes it upon themselves to share with me what is a correct r/s.
or attempt to sympathize with me when all i feel is *rolls eyes x infinity*
i love him, be it whatever he is.
its like a fact.
yes i do get angry regardin it sumtimes.
but i'm super forgetful. *god's grace*
it'lll disappear in a while.
regardin being a teacher.
i stayed in school till 7 pm~
jus to do my stuff
*rolls eyes*.. i'm jus a relief teacher.
confirm.made up my mind.
i'mgointoexeter.
for da first time since so long.
my birthday this yr was relatively quiet.
sum of my dear kids remembered.(:
i was actually like lookin forward to it.
cos i tot i'll get sum surprise and like be super elated
wee~
*needles cumin from all over da place burst my bubble*
it feels worst when everyone was like
"gosh, birthday is a big event for me, i'll be super upset if there's no big hoo-ha or smth"
rite, i really needed that comment.
havin a bf doesn't = to romance.
esp if he's not romantic.
all the comments by close frenz n staff room was like rubbing a concentrated solution of salt and vinegar on my wound.
yes, OUCH!
i wasn't feelin bad at all. cos like its his personality to be not romantic.
anniversaries n birthdays and V.DAY are quite non-existents in our r/s.
its not bad or sad or smth.
as in i really mean it.
it only feels bad & sad & smth when everyone
takes it upon themselves to share with me what is a correct r/s.
or attempt to sympathize with me when all i feel is *rolls eyes x infinity*
i love him, be it whatever he is.
its like a fact.
yes i do get angry regardin it sumtimes.
but i'm super forgetful. *god's grace*
it'lll disappear in a while.
moments captured! Thursday, July 19, 2007.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
being a teacher..
well sorta..
drives me crazy.
its like so draining to run after them.
feels like catchin game every lesson
i feel that most of them are..
mentally challenged
in certain ways.
"cer, the egg need to crack then beat arhs?"
wow, if you can beat the egg without cracking the egg.
teach me.
oh~! and i'm super excited.
dar's gonna try quit smoking.
i did research on it. 3 main stages of quiting.
1. cold turkey
2. emptiness
3. make or break.
seems like most pple smoke due to habit, (after meals)
or to release frustrations over certain emotions.
eg.stress, saddness, loneliness.
my dar is both..): but i check lers.. it takes 2 days to 2 weeks to completely cut off!!
and the most tough would be da first 3 days.
its ok to cough and sqeeze or drip uncontrollably
cos it simply means---------the body is trying to get rid of the toxins in the lungs!
and dar often suffer from this when he stops for a day. so his body had long time ago protested agains nicotine.
*3 cheers and waves pom pom frantically*
alongst the process he'll suffer fatigue, lack of concentration.
muscle aches, short temperedness.
cold turkey symptoms like sweating(cold), cough, wheezing, drippin-tappy.
i mus do my part as a dearest.
mus distract him, urge him to drink loads of water
no alcohol (will affect his withdrawal).
sweets(non-sweetened)..
*quit smoking = diabetic*----if i give him sweetened sweets.
treat him presents.
and massAges.
must let him sleep alot.
etc.
most of all.
not be soft-hearted. *ties a ribbon of determination on my head*
love u dar~!
well sorta..
drives me crazy.
its like so draining to run after them.
feels like catchin game every lesson
i feel that most of them are..
mentally challenged
in certain ways.
"cer, the egg need to crack then beat arhs?"
wow, if you can beat the egg without cracking the egg.
teach me.
oh~! and i'm super excited.
dar's gonna try quit smoking.
i did research on it. 3 main stages of quiting.
1. cold turkey
2. emptiness
3. make or break.
seems like most pple smoke due to habit, (after meals)
or to release frustrations over certain emotions.
eg.stress, saddness, loneliness.
my dar is both..): but i check lers.. it takes 2 days to 2 weeks to completely cut off!!
and the most tough would be da first 3 days.
its ok to cough and sqeeze or drip uncontrollably
cos it simply means---------the body is trying to get rid of the toxins in the lungs!
and dar often suffer from this when he stops for a day. so his body had long time ago protested agains nicotine.
*3 cheers and waves pom pom frantically*
alongst the process he'll suffer fatigue, lack of concentration.
muscle aches, short temperedness.
cold turkey symptoms like sweating(cold), cough, wheezing, drippin-tappy.
i mus do my part as a dearest.
mus distract him, urge him to drink loads of water
no alcohol (will affect his withdrawal).
sweets(non-sweetened)..
*quit smoking = diabetic*----if i give him sweetened sweets.
treat him presents.
and massAges.
must let him sleep alot.
etc.
most of all.
not be soft-hearted. *ties a ribbon of determination on my head*
love u dar~!
moments captured! Thursday, July 12, 2007.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
I HOPE THIS WORKS.
testing 1.2.3.
lol.
i took this skin from eugene's sister.
i like da concept.
i'm mean.
i tink when i'm free.
i'll further edit.
i'm feeling super sick.like feverish and flu. *blows nose*
i got into EXETER!
but just when i took much determination to go to ANU.
as usual.
absolutely retarded.
i guess lord knows me best.
i tink he must be tellin gabriel or any of the angels right beside him now.
"see!i told you, that's y i immediately send her to ANU for JULY intake."
then he'll end it off with this.
*shakes head*.
mus go thru the process of vexing all over again. x(
testing 1.2.3.
lol.
i took this skin from eugene's sister.
i like da concept.
i'm mean.
i tink when i'm free.
i'll further edit.
i'm feeling super sick.like feverish and flu. *blows nose*
i got into EXETER!
but just when i took much determination to go to ANU.
as usual.
absolutely retarded.
i guess lord knows me best.
i tink he must be tellin gabriel or any of the angels right beside him now.
"see!i told you, that's y i immediately send her to ANU for JULY intake."
then he'll end it off with this.
*shakes head*.
mus go thru the process of vexing all over again. x(
moments captured! Tuesday, July 10, 2007.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
i still cant make up my mind,
lord please help me..
is it history or geography?
i'm strong at both..love both..
how to choose..
i'm afraid uni history too much science..
i'm beta at understanding..
i hate field studies too..
how..
i dun like chucks and chunks of film and music impacts on society too..
absolutely retarded.
poor dar..super stress out by work..
seem sum super nice phrases..regarding stress and making blunders..
all this goes out for ya love~
1. sometimes, some mistakes are too fun to be only be made once..;)
2. we should learn from crayons..some are pretty, some are dull, some tall and short..but they'll eventually all have to fit inside the same box..
3. imagine that all ur stress is like clothing, if you choose to drop all of it, you have to be naked. so learn to live with it..
smthin to share dar, my fellow teachers told me sumthin super retarded..
her frenz go for therapy every week..
guess for wat?
she claims that we face the com everyday so we absorb alot of iron from the com..
so we must 'cleanse' the metal toxins outta ur body.
i feel that..
she's abit looney..
=X..
lord please help me..
is it history or geography?
i'm strong at both..love both..
how to choose..
i'm afraid uni history too much science..
i'm beta at understanding..
i hate field studies too..
how..
i dun like chucks and chunks of film and music impacts on society too..
absolutely retarded.
poor dar..super stress out by work..
seem sum super nice phrases..regarding stress and making blunders..
all this goes out for ya love~
1. sometimes, some mistakes are too fun to be only be made once..;)
2. we should learn from crayons..some are pretty, some are dull, some tall and short..but they'll eventually all have to fit inside the same box..
3. imagine that all ur stress is like clothing, if you choose to drop all of it, you have to be naked. so learn to live with it..
smthin to share dar, my fellow teachers told me sumthin super retarded..
her frenz go for therapy every week..
guess for wat?
she claims that we face the com everyday so we absorb alot of iron from the com..
so we must 'cleanse' the metal toxins outta ur body.
i feel that..
she's abit looney..
=X..
moments captured! Tuesday, July 03, 2007.