HUGs.
A simple action used to be taken for granted
Now live in memories
Love is no longer about earthshaking romance
Love is...
Sweetness.Presence.Past.Present.Future.
About holding hands.becos of e warmth.becos it means u're here with me.
Love is...
"LAO PO.u go.i'll wait for u.jia you."
No second words.
Just a smile with tears inside.
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lord,
i pray that you'll be..
the force that binds our love
the fuel that keep us goin
the courage for us to hold on together
the faith that helps our love walk by faith instead of sight
the comfort if times of loneliness
in jesus name
i pray amen.
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Thursday, January 24, 2008</
*clears da cobweb and mops the place*.
this place mus have byn so dead..
now for today's story..
i've got quite alot to say..
ehem~
paul tan~!u're a fortune teller..i tink u mus have cast a spell on me..:D
he successfully predicted that they'll get bck together
but u noe
i dun tink they shuld..*paul would say..we're nobody to judege*
but i noe her..
they jus aren't gonna mak it..its going to be so tough!
its jus she's so into herself and he's like u noe young and wild..he doesn't look into e future
thr were so many senarios..
if it was paul..he would have done it another way..
another way to reassure me..its nt this way..he's too misleading.
he should have told her off straight..that i like her..dat i dun like u..
its that that simple
to cause her to fuck off
but he din..he send her hm..msg her replies with miss u..love u..
now tell me gals out there..is it correct~?
but sumtimes..i cant help but doubt how much he love her..
he said he's gonna prove his worth
how?if u're worth her love..u'll jus take her back and b the nicest bf arnd
agree ladies?
so..mayb if my bf is nt a romantic greek guy..i should be thankful..=))
do u believe everythin a guy says..
let me tell u ladies..the model answer is..
NO!
dun be so stupid..,man r the onli creatures who lie n get away with it becos..
1.woman dun dare face the truth
2.they dun get nervous lying
3. they dun really feel guilty easily
4. they r born with more guts
5. they are born with balls=more guts
6.man can love 2..I REPEAT 2 or more woman at the same time
7. dun tell me nonsens like..but he holds my hands..make love with me..kiss me..shuddup and face it ladies..any..i REPEAT ANY!! guy can do dat..its jus like breathing to them..nt necessaily a love gesture
8.man r born bastards..its gods test for woman to gain entry to heaven
9.even the best guy on earth..is flawed..is selfish..is a coward in nature
10.woman r born to b die heart romantic,to believe in the fucking shit of true love,to believe in the total bullshit about forgive and forget, and many more ultimately LAME AND LOSER STUFF. in another words..woman=losers. which of cos includes me myself.
thankfully, my boyfren is gay..he's jus using me as a coverup to noe all my guy frens..lol(i noe u're so gonna kill me)..hopefully he isn't as bad as usual guys. yeah i noe..i'm a sucker and a loser.
oh let me repeat.
i hate gurls who
1. are thai
2. are super damn fat and tink they are pretty and slim(get a life..starve urself to death!)
3. puts so much make up on their face that it seems like they use one box for each time they make up.
4. copies people's dressing
5. have boyfrens but wanna steal other ppl's boyfrenz!
6. who are ultimately in love with themselves and keep taking pictures of themselves n uploads new fotos everyhr in friendster. (oh cum on, u're damn sad..u're jus in love with urself cos nobody loves u)
7. who tries to act as if they have beaten the guys's gf(hey hey..if u r tis successful u wun have to resort in doin this..fuckin bitch)
anyways..i was jus refering to one gal..i dun wanna specify..in case pple vomit over my blog..
look darlin~see my body?i have like B cup, 24 waist,35hips. i have CURVES, i'm not in one damn shape--a tub. and i dun EVER FUCKING WEAR MAKEUP.y?cos i noe i'm pretty enough just as myself.i'm BORN tanned and when i get into the sun, i NEVER peel like u(aww..so sad). i jus turn golden~ i have brown eyes (thanks to being in england),sadly u have color contacts. i have the confidence, the BRAINS to carry myself proudly at 1.63m. cumon baby~i make heads turn WHEREEVER i go WHENEVER i bother to dress up. i never had to ask for numbers, becos they will ask for mine. =)) unlike u who has to b introduced~
u noe wat i have and u dun? BEAUTY..repeat after me. B.E.A.U.T.Y. n Y.O.U.T.H. man are suckers. they are superificial animals. u will NEVER..win me or my bestie.
MOREthanyesterday.LESSERthantomolo
Saturday, October 20, 2007</
u know..smth happened.
i dun wanna elaborate.
i wish life was alot simpler. choices dun involve sacrifises
that i could lift and smile again
i know if this was over. its really is the end. no more sunshine or sunrise anymore in my life.
i would never b able to face it
i realise as u grow older
u face more stuff
u blog bout alot more horrid stuff
stuff that u will grow to face
stuff that will force ur courage to grow
stuff that will force u to a corner
to know sumthings u do..u can never turn back. it would only become
for better or for worst. only the lord knows.
lord father, hear me cry.
i need u..to give me the support i need.
to forgive me this sinner and give me a chance again
father i'm sorry, u know how difficult it was for me.
u know it blows out the last flame in my life.i really fucking hate myself for this.
but i know its the best way out for everythin and everyone.
i know 20..30 yrs later. i will retink, regret and stuff.
i know lord, its a gift. its really beautiful but i cant do it.u know i cant.
i know u tink i'm foolish god, i know i am. help me not blame myself lord, help me find redemption in my soul.
let the blood of jesus wash through me. purify my soul to give me forgiveness
i seek ur forgiveness and comfort.
i seek ur love and courage
i seek ur peace and wisdom
i seek for determination and optimisism.
i praise u my god, i really understand how painful it is now. and i exalt u, i give u my most earnest bow and respect. god, help me.
MOREthanyesterday.LESSERthantomolo
Monday, October 15, 2007</
i agree..
its a damn nice show
6 more weeks and i'm goin home!=))
i miss my frenz,,goodness i miss an,jessie and eugene. :D
i'm willing as u know as u can see..
to do anythin,,to go any distance.
to make e day beta for both of us.
when u were in debt, i gave up driving, to work.
even when workin i dun even dare to go for lunch breaks cos mus break for an hr
which means less 1 hr pay.
sometimes, i dunno y god created woman this way.
to give so much, willingly, for man.
i dream of jobs against integrity.
i worked for jobs that require me to put down my chasity and pride.
i wonder what gave me so much strength then.
i would always wipe every tear that happen to flow due to tiredness or anythin else and work till i drop.
i wonder will any man remember.
my foolishness.
i wonder if there's any guy that will always keep that few months close and dear to his heart and love me,thankfully with every inch in his heart.
if there is, i'm not kiddin, i'll marry him
i may be givin u gifts that ur previous gf have given b4.
but understand i realy rack my brains to give u the gift cos i really mean it with all my heart.
i hope u'll treasure them as much as those similar gifts others have given u.
i hope u'll know, i can giv u everythin they can
as well as everythin no girl can ever.
MOREthanyesterday.LESSERthantomolo
tongues.UnleaSHED.
this place mus have byn so dead..
now for today's story..
i've got quite alot to say..
ehem~
paul tan~!u're a fortune teller..i tink u mus have cast a spell on me..:D
he successfully predicted that they'll get bck together
but u noe
i dun tink they shuld..*paul would say..we're nobody to judege*
but i noe her..
they jus aren't gonna mak it..its going to be so tough!
its jus she's so into herself and he's like u noe young and wild..he doesn't look into e future
thr were so many senarios..
if it was paul..he would have done it another way..
another way to reassure me..its nt this way..he's too misleading.
he should have told her off straight..that i like her..dat i dun like u..
its that that simple
to cause her to fuck off
but he din..he send her hm..msg her replies with miss u..love u..
now tell me gals out there..is it correct~?
but sumtimes..i cant help but doubt how much he love her..
he said he's gonna prove his worth
how?if u're worth her love..u'll jus take her back and b the nicest bf arnd
agree ladies?
so..mayb if my bf is nt a romantic greek guy..i should be thankful..=))
do u believe everythin a guy says..
let me tell u ladies..the model answer is..
NO!
dun be so stupid..,man r the onli creatures who lie n get away with it becos..
1.woman dun dare face the truth
2.they dun get nervous lying
3. they dun really feel guilty easily
4. they r born with more guts
5. they are born with balls=more guts
6.man can love 2..I REPEAT 2 or more woman at the same time
7. dun tell me nonsens like..but he holds my hands..make love with me..kiss me..shuddup and face it ladies..any..i REPEAT ANY!! guy can do dat..its jus like breathing to them..nt necessaily a love gesture
8.man r born bastards..its gods test for woman to gain entry to heaven
9.even the best guy on earth..is flawed..is selfish..is a coward in nature
10.woman r born to b die heart romantic,to believe in the fucking shit of true love,to believe in the total bullshit about forgive and forget, and many more ultimately LAME AND LOSER STUFF. in another words..woman=losers. which of cos includes me myself.
thankfully, my boyfren is gay..he's jus using me as a coverup to noe all my guy frens..lol(i noe u're so gonna kill me)..hopefully he isn't as bad as usual guys. yeah i noe..i'm a sucker and a loser.
oh let me repeat.
i hate gurls who
1. are thai
2. are super damn fat and tink they are pretty and slim(get a life..starve urself to death!)
3. puts so much make up on their face that it seems like they use one box for each time they make up.
4. copies people's dressing
5. have boyfrens but wanna steal other ppl's boyfrenz!
6. who are ultimately in love with themselves and keep taking pictures of themselves n uploads new fotos everyhr in friendster. (oh cum on, u're damn sad..u're jus in love with urself cos nobody loves u)
7. who tries to act as if they have beaten the guys's gf(hey hey..if u r tis successful u wun have to resort in doin this..fuckin bitch)
anyways..i was jus refering to one gal..i dun wanna specify..in case pple vomit over my blog..
look darlin~see my body?i have like B cup, 24 waist,35hips. i have CURVES, i'm not in one damn shape--a tub. and i dun EVER FUCKING WEAR MAKEUP.y?cos i noe i'm pretty enough just as myself.i'm BORN tanned and when i get into the sun, i NEVER peel like u(aww..so sad). i jus turn golden~ i have brown eyes (thanks to being in england),sadly u have color contacts. i have the confidence, the BRAINS to carry myself proudly at 1.63m. cumon baby~i make heads turn WHEREEVER i go WHENEVER i bother to dress up. i never had to ask for numbers, becos they will ask for mine. =)) unlike u who has to b introduced~
u noe wat i have and u dun? BEAUTY..repeat after me. B.E.A.U.T.Y. n Y.O.U.T.H. man are suckers. they are superificial animals. u will NEVER..win me or my bestie.