i jus keep saying the wrong things.
i'm a really horrible gf.
i shouldnt demand for more hugs n kisses.
i shoulnt have so much problem.
i shouldnt tok abt how i feel so much.
i should tink more abt his feelings.
i should jus be stronger n not share too much and tink too much.
i should not ask so much.
i should not demand so much.
i'm really troublesome.
i really dunno wat to do animore.
mayb i dun deserve a pair.
i really dun mean it negatively. i jus wanted to share like oh..i used to tink tis way. so now like i dun tink tis way den i haf courage to tell u i wan more cuddles.
but its my fault. i dun wanna argue. i really am tired abt arguing.
i'm scared of hearin its the end.
so i dun really noe wat to do. i'm sorry is the only thing i can tink of.
i'm so scared. will sumone come n hug me n tell me its okies.
will someone jus pls tell me he or she understands. that its alright. that i'm gonna b okies.
i'm so scared. my heart really hurts.
*pats myself on the back* its ok sam. its gonna b fine. u will b a strong ger. come.
be strong sam. we can do it. when everybody abandon u. u always manage to stand. u'll b fine sam. u'll be jus okies. u always do the wrong things. but u mus learn okies? u jus screw up ur r/s. exam is comin. u dun deserve to cry or b sad. u brought tis upon urself. stand up. come on.

i wish to blog everyday.
sumtimes i wish dear would see my blog.but i dun tink he does.
its quite a private place.nice place to rant on and on.
i'm so freaking freakin slack.
i havent done my assignment and its freaking due tomorrow.
*all hail samantha*

sum shit happened to me today. i was walkin back with phuong from nandos.
den
1. a car came n whistle. den start honkin like crazy!
-i was shock-
2.another car drove and den threw a spinnin cd which brush pass my glasses.den they started making weird sounds.
-i was so freaked out-
damn.boys in england are really atrocious.
really ANIMALS.FUCKIN IDIOTS.
seriously if i jus moved or turn my face the CD would have cut my eye and disfigured my face.
wat can i do?learn to accept it.

saw steph blog.u noe.i guess i wan smth likedat.
i wan sumone to be with me.to accept me and to be sensitive to my feelings.to love me.
in return. i will love u.
i will b faithful.
i will devote my life to making u the happiest man alive.
i would bear u as many children as you wish.
i would maintain my figure so that u wun feel sick looking at a ugly woman.
i will dress and change according to make u happy.
i dun need u to earn big bucks.u can earn lesser than me. i really dun care. i will be responsible for being the breadwinner if there's a need.
i dun demand u to hold any shit qualification.
i promise to share ur dreams n believe in them.i swear never to laugh or give up about it.
i promise to give u a decent dinner with vege,meat/fish or soup with dessert every meal.
i promise i will massge ur back and do a full food pedicure for u.
i promise to wake up with u early and prepare breakfast for u.
i promise to pat u to sleep and watch u sleep before i do.
i promise to wait and pick u after work every possible day.
i promise to make u smile in every way i can even if i can have make a fool out of myself.
i promise to love ur soccer team and play soccer with u and our son.
i promise to do all the housework so dat u will have a clean hse.
i promise to vaccum every month at least once so dat u wun feel dust in the house.
i promise i would never cross the line between u and ur frenz.
i promise to let u hang out with ur guy mate.
i promise to love watever u love and learn watever u r interested in.
i promise with all my heart to accept every flaw u have and see beauty in them.
i promise that u'll b my hero and the only person i would do all these for.
i promise to save for u. to try my best to get u anything u need.
i promise never to answer back or raise my voice at you ever.

i jus love da show.
i noe i should b workin but i wan to dream.
its byn so long since i dreamed.
abt us n kids.

feel like a lil gal again.
i hope tis feelin will keep growing.
i miss bein his lil girl. i wanna grow in his palms.

i see our lil girl makin me pissed. beco she wants smth from a shop that i din wanna buy.
she pouts n ran to him.
guess wat?he later went back to buy it. dbl standards!
and u noe wat?my son was angry with him den.
den its like i was so angry i din wan to mediate.LOL.
so cute right?if my family is likedat i wanna have alot of them.=)

i wan my boy to sha jiao when he's 20.
i wanna have weekend dinners and shopn trips with the entire family.(of cos mothers pay mahs)
i wanna bing my lil gal to paris n buy her nice stuff.
i wanna massage for my hubby and luff at him.
i wanna get angry when he dote my gal too much till its overboard.
i wan to hug my boy and get jealous over his gf and pout n complain to dar abt her breast,butt and looks.
i wan to be a better gf.

i promise.i will be more thoughtful and not take u for granted. i will b ur lil gal.

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