Saturday, May 17, 2008

just smth random.
i feel loved but unloved easily.=(
i should focus on other stuff instead.
i wish i was like last time.
abit abit jiu kai xing.
lol

i rmber. famous cookies delivery when i was slping.
i rmber the familiar ci t. how u kissed me dat day.
how u tugged me to bed in ur hm.
how u kissed my forehead. =)) i mus remember happy stuff.
how u rushed to bugis early in the morn for my bad but end up with 2 tim sum.
thank u for loving me w/o giving up.

thank u for wanting to b my cushion. for tryin ur best to love me.
for promising u wont let go. that u will not luff at me.
i can see that.

tml will b a better day. i will summon all my courage. go to church n come back with a huge sense of relief n i'll be better.

lord, i pray abt out r/s. paul has byn givin so much for me jesus. help me overcome the hurt in my heart.
help me let go of the past to move on.
help me stand up and love again. lord. i pray u're the centre of our r/s. pls lord. help us.
be the source of our love. i pray for ur wisdom, your kindness n undying love.
i praise u god, my lord. in jesus name, amen.

moments captured! Saturday, May 17, 2008.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

its jus kinda crazy.

i am trying so much to adjust. i really feel deflated.

i know i should do my essay hard now.

but i'm so NOT. i repeat NOT in the mood.

i hope so much to do a lil more and hand in a piece of shit. i feel so slack.

u noe.

looking at steph's blog. she's not such a bad gurl.

but she's nt attractive as i tot. after looking for long

anyways.

poor des. i wished i could do smth for him.

i wished i could be there for them. i really wanna get it over and done with.

i really jus wan a 1st class. that's all.

or 2.1 will b really good.

hais.

anyways. i jus bot some stuff. looks really nice right? =DD

moments captured! Wednesday, May 14, 2008.

Monday, May 05, 2008

jus a random picture.

i feel more attractive out of a sudden in tis picture.

days are passing by and i am still so slack.

i wish i had studied in NUS.

mommy is hopeless. she seems to go crazier by the day. and i really dun know wat to do with her. lord i pray that u will help mommy's condition. so that daddy doesn't collapse as well.

i blame her. i blame her for not being there for us. when we needed her.for bringing so much problems n not being willing to stand. but den again. what can i do.

life has byn ok. rushin around with phuong most of the time. its quite scary to see her buy stuff.

DKNY handbag at i tink 225 pounds. dress from DIESEL. polo ralph tee. but u noe. how can she afford all this if she doesn't get a gd job in future?hais. and her lifestyle needs a high paying job. although she doesnt tink of lookin for rich guys as a priority. i tink it is of no choice. becos bein a normal lady. u cant afford all tis branded goods.

i'm quite tired. we've byn quarreling the past week and i'm quite on the verge of breaking down. i jus din wanna tok abt it animore. let it past. i dunno and am tired to tink abt who's in ur heart or not. i jus take one day at a time. and i guess i should stop tinkin abt future. stop making so much effort to tink. i suddenli feel dat woman with simple brains r realli blessed.

june is appraochin. i'm gonna b in my 2nd yr soon. =D its all gonna end and i'm gonna find a job n graduate. mayb i can set up my own lifestyle. i wanna curl up alone in my new lil hse. and like get a puppy for company. hopefully meet up with my pals for supper. life goes like that.

moments captured! Monday, May 05, 2008.