randomly, i miss my pets at hm. wondering how is thumper and momo. =))
this was momo when she was like a few weeks old. its jsu amazing how mutant like my hamsters can get.
i rmber how vira told me, the vet clinic couldn't stop laughing when they see momo. like he's seriously overweight. LOL.
the vet was like, "he's abit fat." LOL.
you gotta love it man!



u noe. i'm kinda amazed with the way god works. =D
like for ziming. jus pray pray pray that he'll stay on the path.
he kinda showed me the other side of singapore.
i feel really blessed. although i know i always have been. in terms of love, family, friends.
its jus amazing how god holds me so close n picks me up.





anyways. i am so ill. its unbelievable. i dun even have the strength to eat or type.
n SOBE send me a letter to tell me i missed school. LIKE DUHHH.
i am ill okies. =.=



sometimes i just feel like you'r too busy for me.its kinda hard to keep doin things when i'm ill.u said u'll not go out to play, u'll chat with me.when u did, it wasn't for me. it was becos u're too tired. face it. dun use it as an excuse to say u did to urself. cos u noe very well u din. sumtimes i wish i could jus do wat everyone say. leave it.if u were very ill. wat will u do if i did all these?

hehe~
u noe the times of waiting for ur exam strip can drive u nuts.
ya. seriously it is driving me crazy.

i am waiting for it becos
1. i love my tourism module n hopefully ace it

i am not wanting for it to appear becos
2. i love ops management but i was too panicky so i literally skipped the qns i knew how to do and forgot to attempt them at the end of exams. =.=

surely, i am a retard

i am goin london with adele lee~LOL. i can have her ALL TO MYSELF NOW~
muahahas!

i got alot of things to say. but i am nuts at expressing myself.

all in all. i feel fortunate that i have paul. that he's always there.
i feel fortunate cos its not easy to find sumone u love.
dat loves u back as well.
dat is still faithful
dat is still missing each other everyday.

sumtimes. god just work in wonderous ways. that i cant even imagine.

i pray for my dear friend ziming lord. my dear father.
that i shall lift him into ur hands and i know that u will tend to all his worries.
just as much as u will tend to any of ur children.
for he has wandered far and is hungry for the bread.
for forgivness, love and understanding.
that holy one, i'm so glad he shared with me.
i pray that u will endow ur grace upon his soul and refresh him.
from the inside out lord.
that no matter how dire the situation or how gloom it appears to be.
u will bring light and show him the way. for u will close doors only to open new ones for him.
that i pray ur wisdom is upon every single thing he does.
that u will work thru him and in him. to love the children arnd him.
lord, give him peace that will settle his soul.
remind him of the moments u touch his heart n carried him through.
i thank god for the chance to be his friend.
thank god for who am i today.
thank u lord, for my optimism in every situation.
i just pray that he will trust in u again.
i praise u father, for u are almighty, the alpha and omega. amen.

no prayer goes unheard i guess, it jus works with time. the many times i prayed for someone it just amaze me how it comes back at the end. =)

on a lighter note. GILDA!go forth and pursue thy dream. for thy only live once and shall onli be given this lifetime to dream!DREAM BIG LOVE. and fulfill them!

just curious. did i provide the spark for the breakup?i feel bad tinking abt it even. hmm...

lol. sumtimes what cheers me up is reading about what others write about.
i love ziming's blog.
kinda personal yet artsy fatsy n totally cool! i mean it. LETS MOVE IN TGT. =X.

i like stef's blog(well technically she's nt a fren)
but, its kinda comforting. reminds me of what singaporean girls r like materialistic, emotional yet very much assuming about love.

Del's blog is lovely,there's endless awesome pictures.
definately a lil love for her darling and pictures captivating the soul of our lives in england.

Somehow as you go older,
u'll just realise a cliche? friendships dun work the same as they do in the past.
like not so much about heart to heart exchanging. but like subtle sharing of parts of our lives.
i know and i must thank god for the wonderful and amazing, i really mean AMAZING friends i have standing with me.
i love them all. i truely did. i mean i have my fair share of frenship failures(they roughly occur every 2 yrs). but its jus sumtimes looking at these ppl remaining.

somehow i just don't feel so alone anymore. :D

ciwen told me he is tuned to loneliness at times. i guess many of us too?
i wanna say stuff stuff to ziming though.

i dun really know what's goin on with his life.(i mean i do from his random blog stuff abt his students) but i'm really glad i have him as a fren. i'm glad i went back to NCHS.
i tink i really do love him. =) "NONO. ITS NOT THE BGR THINGY!"
I love my bf more than anythin possible.

its just he's one of those ppl i hardly know but i feel i do know somehow?hahas weird. its about being very comfortable. just wanna be there for him?
sometimes i feel that he's kinda lonely n upset despite being cranky most of the time. i knew by impression life wasn't always smiling at him. but he's jus kinda strong in that sense. and brave to take steps forward.
he's sorta admirable i guess. in ways i can't really describe? just ya. i guess i love him enuff to want a chance to cook for him and sit down n listen to his life. perhaps share a tear or a hearty luff from the bottom of our hearts. (i dunno, i just feel i never got to see him luff from his heart b4, subjective subjective.)

i guess lord. somehow u will touch him back. i can trust that u will and i hope father that u're gonna b somehow the link between our abstract friendship.

"I missed her....somehow one can never forgets certain things...no matter how hard one try or how long have time passed...quoted by my fren...lol...there is some truth in it...I still miss her from time to time...especially when I am in need of someone to talk to or whenever I am lost...but she is too far for tht le....part of life bah=) So just to let u knw, u are MISSED by me...=D"

i miss him too. =) eugene has byn a really special fren. perhaps the onli one dat i share problems with. i see him grow. played a huge part in it. and hopefully will continue to do so.

An erms, she's never there nowadays. got bf den e world jus changes i guess. whenever i wanna tok to her abt problems. she's never there anymore. i miss the times dat i have a girl bestie. =(

jessie. i hardly see her. esp after andrew's case. makes things even harder.

phuong. i seriously dun recognise her. so its kinda a pity. she used to be a really dependable friend.

as the world changes. u jus look back and see like how ur friends just come and go in ur life. its like passing clouds whereas i'm jus like the earth. spinnin arnd my own growth and letting clouds disappear.

sumtimes. life is jus so fragile. since 16 i made it a pt to find a balance in everything.
friends.
love.
family esp. but sumtimes its jus nt as easy to stay objective.

Pretty amazing. my first experience with a snowman. *BIG HUGS*

Two retards getting excited over snow. ^^

the one below was when snow just arrived, the one on top was when it snowed for 15 minutes. ah~ the power of mother nature.

Just amazing. global warming at its best. been in exeter for so long. snow onli falls in times i wasn't arnd or in other parts of england. today is the luckiest day ever. there's so much snow!how exciting! i had KFC for lunch and i was so excited that they place it in a paper bag jus very much like on television. and den its snowed after lunch! amazing! =))

however, tomorrow would be the sctaul snow storm n i have to go to sch. how inconvenient would dat be. i would love to create snow angels near home. =(

feels so much like BELATED CHRISTMAS afterall. ^^

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